Valentine's Day

This is the first year in many that I didn't wake up to find my heart bitter that there is no special someone in my life and do you know why? Because I realized that there is. I chose to think upon, spend time with and rest in the only One that will never let me go. Jesus is the ultimate valentine. I decided this year to refocus. I am not alone. Yes, I desire to have a relationship here on earth with a wonderful man, but even if I had that, it couldn't compare to what I already have in Jesus. It amazes me to see God's grace in my life for this particular area. There was a time when I would hear someone say you may never get married and I would break down in tears. I noticed contentment in this area about 3 years ago and then God tested me by bringing an incredible guy into my life and then asking me to give him up. It was hard, very hard, but He gave me grace to obey and He gave me grace to move on and to remain content. Recently, I have struggled with discontentment and depression. I hadn't even seen it coming, but, BOOM, there it was. I had to stop and examine my heart and ask myself why? The truth is that I was focusing too much on what I wanted and didn't have and that was causing me to doubt God's goodness toward me. He loves me so much that He didn't allow me to stay in that place for longer than 2 weeks before He lifted my eyes back to Him. Since then, I have found myself desiring to be in His Word more, spending time communicating with Him more and quite frankly, falling more in love with Him. It was easy this year to see who my heart belongs to and who I should spend today with.
I spent the afternoon watching the first half of The Gospel of John movie focusing on Jesus and why He came to this earth. Yes, it was for His Father's glory, for His glory, BUT, it was also because He loved the world. He loved us! He still loves us and intercedes for us. I like to think about his relationship with his disciples and how affectionate and compassionate He was with them. Just think about John, reclining with his head on the savior's chest! There was true love and intimacy between them that can only exist in Christ. How I long to sit with the Savior and rest my head on his chest and experience the pure sweet love that only He can offer. As long as my eyes remain there, I have no need to "feel" discouraged, depressed or discontent, but every reason to rejoice and to place my hope and trust in Him. And as His word says, "Delight thyself also in the LORD; and He shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in Him; and He shall bring it to pass." I have no need to concern myself with the things of this world that I think I need or want, because He knows and wants what is best for me and will bring it about in His timing as I delight in Him, nothing shall I want and everything else will seem but a blessing added to the greatest gift of all.
Happy Valentine's Day, everyone!