Why is it so easy to doubt God when He is the only One who has been completely faithful? The only answer i can come up with is , of course, sin. I doubt God because I look at my situation and things are not going the way I think they should, so I begin to believe that God is not for me, that He is withholding something from me, that He wants to see me hurting. How absurd are these thoughts, and yet, these are the very things that I have been believing. How do you fight this? With the truth, obviously, but when you're in the midst of this doubt how do you lift your eyes to find the truth? Isn't that what the church is for? Isn't that why God gave us friendships? Are we not to point one another to Christ and to remind one another of truth? How do we do that when we're too busy to bother? I know that I am guilty of this. I get so caught up in my own life and everything that needs to occur, that I forget to pick up the phone and call to see how the rest of you are doing. The church at large is guilty of this. In our society today it's all about me, me, me and everything is on high speed and there are so many distractions. As we pray for "revival" in our church, I pray that the Holy Spirit would step in and lift our eyes first and foremost to Christ and to our Heavenly Father, but also to direct our gaze outward to the needs of those around us, both spiritual and physical, and that He would remove the distractions of the world so that we can focus on what is most important....Love! Loving our God with all our hearts, minds and souls, and loving our neighbors as ourselves. If I loved my neighbor even a 10th of how I love myself what a difference I could make in their life.
Father, forgive me for my selfish pursuits and my vain obsessions. Help me to lift my eyes toward Heaven and to be more aware of those around me. Help me to grow in love for my neighbors, my brothers and sister in the church, my family...help me to place others needs above my own. Show me where I can step outside of myself more and position myself to do Your work.
Thank You for even bringing this to my attention, because You want to change me. I am so grateful that You never let me go and that there is NOTHING that can separate me from the love of Christ, because even when there is no one else there to point me to Christ, even when I am in the midst of trial and doubt, YOU will not leave me or forsake me, You lift my eyes and gently point me to the cross and remind me that I am Yours and that You love me. Thank You. Oh God, my God, how I long to see You face to face, to sing Your praises for all eternity and to know You. Thank YOU for loving me.