It's amazing how our bodies hold onto memories and the slightest things can set us off. Two days ago I was sitting in the living room at work and Dana opened the door to let the dog out and left the door open. As I sat there playing Scrabble on my phone the cool autumn breeze blew through the screen and the smell of the air triggered thoughts of camping trips and walks in the park and it made me cry. This is going to be a long and rough road, but I know it's the right road and I know that God will give me the grace I need to keep walking it. There is peace in the pain of letting go because I know that God has so much more on the other side, like the calm in the storm. It's interesting to me as I walk through this process of grieving I am learning much about myself and much about my God. He loves me, that I cannot deny. I am so grateful for that truth. I don't regret obeying Him. I don't resent Him for asking me to let go of Tim. I know that this is how it has to be. It still hurts, but not as badly.
I know now, why it's so important to guard your heart, to seek God and to heed the warnings that He sends. He uses all things to His glory. He is working all things for our good. I believe this with all my heart, which is why I'll keep walking this road. I walk with hope that there is great joy in store. Even now, there is joy in knowing that God has a future and a plan for my life and that He loves me so much that He will not let anything get in the way...even me!
2 comments:
There is so much truth to "guarding your heart"... it's a very wise thing to do... for you AND for him (whoever "him" may be). Even though this is a difficult season, God is showing you important lessons!
Love, Lisa
You are doing such a great job responding to God! He will never fail you.
Post a Comment